Unspeakable

In the purest days of early springtime, my selfish love was given to you.Time passes and my heart has never changed, but my feelings have become completely unspeakable. Shen Kanyu had chased after Gu Yansheng from the moment they met and all years following. He has been married to him for 3 years, has birthed a daughter for him, and now lives at this house he hates to return to, cooking for him even on days he doesn’t return. Still, he is content to continue on as long as their days pass like this. In a place where their hands touch the same bowl, where Gu Yansheng comes to linger in his daughter’s grip, and where warmth softly ghosts him. Easing the ache in his bones, a home that belongs to him, a place he can watch a beautiful little girl and the man he loves happily till the day he dies. A piece of paper at the bottom of a drawer, a rough sketch of a family of three as they walk hand in hand and a dark smear staining the corner of the page. Yet all this still feels sweet.

Original Publisher

chang pei (gongzicp)

Original Language

chinese

Type

Web Novel

## My Thoughts on Unspeakable "Unspeakable" is a web novel that definitely lives up to its genre tags: drama, fantasy, mature, tragedy, and yaoi. It's a rollercoaster of emotions, and while I found myself captivated, it's not a story for the faint of heart. I went in expecting angst, and angst is what I got, in spades. ### First Impressions From the very beginning, I was drawn into Shen Kanyu's world. His struggles with family and his yearning for love were immediately compelling. The story starts strong, setting a tone of underlying sadness that permeates the entire narrative. It's clear from the start that this isn't going to be a light and fluffy read, but rather a deep dive into the complexities of trauma and relationships. ### What Works Well What I appreciated most was the raw emotion conveyed throughout the story. The author does a fantastic job of putting you inside Shen Kanyu's head, allowing you to feel his pain, his longing, and his desperate hope for acceptance. The character development, particularly with Gu Yansheng, is also noteworthy. While he starts off as seemingly unfeeling, his growth and eventual realization of his true feelings for Shen Kanyu are a powerful part of the story's arc. I liked how the author included intricate details that elevated the story from a simple angst-fest to a well-thought-out, detailed narrative. ### Areas of Concern While the angst is a major draw for some, it can also be overwhelming at times. There were moments where I felt the story bordered on being overly dramatic, pushing the boundaries of believability. Also, the lack of retribution for the abusive family members left me feeling unsatisfied. I wanted to see them face the consequences of their actions, but that resolution never fully materialized. ### ⚠️ Spoiler Warning *Proceed with caution, spoilers ahead!* The ending, particularly the extra chapters, sparked mixed feelings. While some found the "true end" and the reincarnation scenario intriguing, I can see how others might find it uncomfortable or even problematic. The idea of the ML raising a younger version of the MC with the intention of marrying him definitely raises some red flags. Also, the fact that even in death, Shen Kanyu still doubts his worth and love he receives is truly heartbreaking. ### Final Verdict Overall, "Unspeakable" is a compelling but emotionally taxing read. If you're a fan of angsty stories with complex characters and don't mind a potentially controversial ending, then this might be right up your alley. However, be prepared for a heavy dose of drama and a rollercoaster of emotions. I'd give it a solid 4 out of 5 stars. It's a story that will stay with you long after you finish reading, but not necessarily in a comfortable way.