Incurable Pain

Bai Xunyin was inadvertently traumatized by stress during the year she graduated from Middle School. She became a “little mute” who couldn’t speak. In her first year of high school, she spent her days listening to the cynicism and discriminatory bullying of people around her until her second year of high school. Bai Xunyin met Yu Luoyin. He was clear, elegant, with straight eyebrows and star like eyes. He was the most handsome boy in school, and was the dream boyfriend of all girls in school. But for Bai Xunyin, Yu Luoyin was the first to protect her, smile at her, discuss topics with her, and the person who had lunch with her. The onset of her crush was turbulent and confusing in her teenage years. Bai Xunyin’s diary during the second year of high school was filled with the name ‘Yu Luoyin’. Bai Xunyin did not extravagantly ask for Yu Luoyin to like her, but she didn’t expect that in the third year of high school, she would inadvertently see his “true personality” in the corner of a corridor. Under Yu Luoyin’s gentle, elegant and handsome appearance was a s*umbag. He faced his two tr*shy friends, smiled and said-“The little mute started to like me. Our bet ends here, I’m bored of staying with her.” Bai Xunyin could not speak, but her eyes knew how to cry. Since then, she never looked directly at Yu Luoyin again. Afterwards Young Master Yu ridiculed her, mocked her, broke a table, apologized, and even hurt himself, he used various methods but it was still useless. He could only kneel in front of Bai Xunyin, his eyes red, and his voice hoarse, begging—”Yinyin, forgive me once. For the rest of my life, I will never dare to do this again.” *You are my unspeakable incurable pain. It hurts when I think of you, but it hurts even more when I can’t think of you.

Original Publisher

jjwxc

Original Language

chinese

Type

Web Novel

## My Thoughts on Incurable Pain "Incurable Pain" is a web novel that took me on a rollercoaster of emotions, exploring themes of trauma, growth, and the complexities of first love. While it's not without its flaws, the story's exploration of flawed characters and their journey towards healing made it a compelling read. ### First Impressions Going in, I knew this wasn't going to be a lighthearted story. The synopsis made it clear that the novel delves into some heavy subject matter, including bullying, betrayal, and the lasting impact of trauma. The initial chapters, particularly those focusing on the male lead's actions, were definitely a hurdle. I had to reconcile with some very questionable behavior early on before I could appreciate the overall narrative. ### What Works Well What truly stood out for me was the character development, especially for the main leads. The female lead's strength, despite her mutism and past trauma, was inspiring. I admired her ability to stand up for herself and her straightforward nature. The male lead's journey from an "entitled jerk" to someone striving to be a better person was a significant focus, and I found it to be a genuinely moving arc. The author did a good job of showing his slow realization of his mistakes and his genuine efforts to change. The time skip was also a great addition, allowing both characters to grow and mature independently before reconnecting. ### Areas of Concern The initial chapters, where the male lead's manipulative behavior is at its peak, can be difficult to stomach. Some readers may find it hard to move past this, and I understand that sentiment. Also, the "yandere" tag felt a bit misleading. While there's some jealousy and possessiveness, it didn't quite reach the level I'd expect from that label. ### ⚠️ Spoiler Warning Some readers might struggle with the male lead's initial pursuit of the female lead stemming from a bet. This act of betrayal is a major point of contention and a source of much angst within the story. However, it's also the catalyst for his character growth and his eventual understanding of the harm he caused. The female lead's initial coldness might also be off-putting to some, but it's a direct result of her trauma and her need to protect herself. ### Final Verdict Overall, I found "Incurable Pain" to be a worthwhile read, landing somewhere around a solid 4/5. It's a story that requires patience and a willingness to look beyond initial flaws to appreciate the characters' journeys. If you enjoy stories with complex characters, realistic struggles, and a focus on personal growth, then this novel might be for you. Just be prepared for some initial discomfort before the real healing begins.